I

Torn bruised
Broken abused
Terrible thrown
Feeling alone
Beauty awaiting
Beauty fading
Tired restless
Desiring goodness
Slipping further
They're breathing murder
Quickly undone
Memories come
...
I came
I saw
I splattered
I came
I saw
I shattered
I came
I saw
I collapsed
I came
I became
Ash

Untitled 3

I've never been the patient kind
Pierced...
Head over feet too fast
Perhaps
What did I do to deserve this distance?
What did I say?
What can I say to dismiss this silence?
Yet I wait
As one waits for the bearer of bad news
I pray that it's not
I've been hurt so many times before
So I'm not in need of anymore
Save me from wondering
I just need honesty
The truth is worth it in the end
Your silence isn't soothing
I try not to let it bother me
Help me to wait on You

Black Balloon

Here she lies- a pool of nothingness. Eyes hollow abysses. Moths have eaten away the carrion. Blood streams from placid veins. Checking lost vital signs. Destination nowhere. She remembered the house of cards she built up to block the pain. Shallow. Hollow. Swallow. These walls could easily blackmail. Too easily. A bundle of fear. The taxi cab driver when she wanted to get out at Market. Tick tock went the clock of doom. She waited, but not for this. Her hands let go, bloody. Freefalling. His touch could have warmed her. He hadn't come. Her heart dead. Silent dread. Ghosts haunt, sadly. Untamed emotion. Distraught. Untaught. Chilling whispers. Sealed demise. Alone.

Waiting in Silence

Take this fright
Take my might
Break my will
Hold me still
Waiting in silence for answers
Silence for answers
Amid this darkness
Do I see Your light
As I am searching for answers?
Stumbling in the dark
Where's the switch
From chaos to trust
From uncertainty back to love
From down below to up above
Rough and tumble
That's the way it is
But not the way it has to be
Not the way You're showing me
So soon...
Fade away into the unknown
That's when I know that faith has come
Your love will make my fear undone
Your arms my back brace
Holding me together now
Holding me so I'm not lonely now
Helping me continue this race
The fire's burning, but I'm afraid to burn
Afraid to yearn
For more than I'm capable of
But then there's this love
My soul overtaken
My strength shaken
Only to be replaced by You
My fears to be faced by You
Staring into this unknown
Your love for me has always been shown
Whether I know it or not
Whether I'm aware of it...
Waiting in silence for answers from You
Waiting in silence for answers from You
This waiting is better than struggling on my own
Better than calling the shots
Better than trying to be what I'm not
Falling farther into You
Falling closer to the truth
That I'll find answers
As I'm waiting in silence
Learning this patience
Closing this distance
As I'm waiting in silence
For answers from You