The SS Lonelyheart

Rewind, rewind
My battered mind
Scars turned white now
But I remember
Was it raining?
It must have been raining
Hot streams rushed wildly down my face
Jungle precipitation
My lungs constricted
You were so heartless
All I wanted to do was bind us together again
Just hold on for dear life
The relationship window ledge
And I was so unhinged
Heartstrings singed
I couldn't breathe
I left you first you would argue
But words and deeds are not the same
I was never really yours
You were never really mine
We were just pretending
That shoreline was neverending
And how I wished love was, too
We never had it
I couldn't force it
It can't be feigned
And all that remained
Was a lonely vessel at sea
You without me
Just me
The lonely

glimpse

Two eyes meeting for the first time
Nerves tense,but only momentarily
Your eyes locked on me, calmly
Not predatory
And I don't even know your name

We already have something in common
A passion matched in intensity
An absolute admiration
A bravery on your part
And I don't even know your name

I have dreamed of speaking with you again
But this time for longer and more in depth
You have such kind eyes
But I don't even know your name

Maybe I am foolish
For imagining conversations I could have with you
You would be the utmost gentleman
Why didn't I ask your name?

I am no good at this
Trying to melt hearts out of thin air
I just can't get you out of my head
Maybe I am not trying,though
Next time, I swear I will ask your name

Anxiety

Anxiety

You push, you pull, you break me down
This time I am boxing back
My strength, my resolve, my surrender, my will
My sanity is under attack
Paranoia settles in, drips down my lips with contempt
They're watching, they're waiting for me to fail
Mocking the time I have spent
Judging me, under the guise of help
Cruel to be kind, they say
I want to get back to a creative place
Where in I will thrive and stay
Like a boulder or a rolling stone
This anxiety rolls into me
Peace seems abstract and elusive
God set me free

Hope

Larger than life you were
Telling eyes
A laugh that could heartily fill a room
And though I despised you, you had your moments
When you were genuine and kind
Time passed
Years even
And now you are only a shell of what you were
You are tired
A darknesss, an aura of sadness clouds your once happy face
Drained of hope
I want to shake you awake
Convince you it's not over
Life is waiting for you
Hope is waiting for you
Just reach out and grab it
Anchor yourself in hope
Hold on

Wallflower

Carefully pasted in a garden of wood
Moments whispered and wasted, misunderstood
Invisible to the naked eye
But I see everything and wonder why
Glances do not seethe unnoticed by me
And I hear each sigh uttered in misery
Each silent tear rolling down your face
I have been here all along, but have I left a trace?
Uninvited, yet lingering still
Against all odds or against my will
Yet still not one has asked for a dance
Nor the slightest glimpse of sweet romance
Whisking away whispers, a stolen glance
But no one dares to take a chance
A smile is a risk, a conversation
Wondering the cause of such hesitation
Pursuit of safety, free from pain
A wallflower I still remain

The Adriatic Sea

A namesake
Waves wash over me
Sea sounds
Enveloped in peace
Each syllable measured, blue
Not scientific, but prolific
Your gaze piercing in the most calming way
Your brown eyes whispering
Nothing else matters
All is calm
There's nothing else
No one else
My heart slows to the trance of those compassionate eyes
A prescription for peace
You cure the chaos
I swim in your silence
Drown in the deftness of your careful, quiet words
Reassuring
Like ocean calm
Blue like the sea
Guardian gaze