Weighty Wait

Restless
I am not good at waiting
For responses from anyone
From Him or him
I second guess myself
Over everything
Not how I want to spend my time
Agonizing, overanalyzing
Wondering what words meant
Or the lack of them
My chest feels heavy
Breathing feels labored
And I cannot figure out why
One moment the words between us flow easily
We smiled
And now we aren't really speaking at all
It's killing me
I pray He would help me let it go
But it is so hard
I want to be positive
To help, to understand, to encourage
You won't let me
So I wait
For Him
For you

My sailor

My sailor
Battle scarred and battle worn
But not without honor
A survivor of the storms of life
Hope is his steadfast anchor
Waves have covered him many times over
His lighthouse never far away
His wars are far more different now
For the strength to face another day
Still he has that sailor will
Liberty hard won
He will be his lighthouse still
Upon his journey home

Yet

I'm giddy
Feeling pretty
My smile stretches on for miles
You produce a heart of joy
And you don't even know yet

I long to someday hold your hand
Though I don't know if it's in His plan
It's you I want to understand
And you don't even know yet

I am becoming smitten
What makes you smile is hidden
A mystery to me
Your soft voice soothing as the sea
And you don't even know yet

I like you
Though it may be forbidden
A friendship beginning anew
Thoughts of you, but not a clue
And you don't even know yet

You have my attention
My ear and my heart
I wish I knew you better
What you are thinking
I don't even know yet

You know my name, my voice
But not yet my mind
You say I am a book you have yet to read
I want to tell you everything, everything
But you don't even know yet