Wallflower

Carefully pasted in a garden of wood
Moments whispered and wasted, misunderstood
Invisible to the naked eye
But I see everything and wonder why
Glances do not seethe unnoticed by me
And I hear each sigh uttered in misery
Each silent tear rolling down your face
I have been here all along, but have I left a trace?
Uninvited, yet lingering still
Against all odds or against my will
Yet still not one has asked for a dance
Nor the slightest glimpse of sweet romance
Whisking away whispers, a stolen glance
But no one dares to take a chance
A smile is a risk, a conversation
Wondering the cause of such hesitation
Pursuit of safety, free from pain
A wallflower I still remain

The Adriatic Sea

A namesake
Waves wash over me
Sea sounds
Enveloped in peace
Each syllable measured, blue
Not scientific, but prolific
Your gaze piercing in the most calming way
Your brown eyes whispering
Nothing else matters
All is calm
There's nothing else
No one else
My heart slows to the trance of those compassionate eyes
A prescription for peace
You cure the chaos
I swim in your silence
Drown in the deftness of your careful, quiet words
Reassuring
Like ocean calm
Blue like the sea
Guardian gaze

James Dean

Mystery
A strange sort of carpe diem arises
From a single James Dean smile
Black t-shirt, jeans and Chucks
That confident, smoky style

History
Time and Hollywood have warned me
My mind is sharp, my heart is curious
Trepidation showers each glance in my direction
Daydreams cloud, emotions turn serious

Does fate tempt me? Is going under such a blunder?
I can't help but wonder...

Vagrant

I have no home. I am homeless. Home is a place of refuge and comfort, where loved ones share and care for one another. I do not experience this. I experince tyranny and cowardice. I experience hatred and rage, a completelack of emotional control. I am a wanderer. The truest friend I have is my faithful dog. He is my companion. I wish Jesus could be felt, like a real live person. Yes, he was human at one time, ut not in my lifetime. Can He see my tears? Does He feel my pain? I'm not sure.

Ellipsis

Left without notice
What was this?
A break in disjointed youth
Relationship had become an ellipsis
Two roads diverged in a wood and I
I took the one I've traveled by
The fork in the road
What's yet to unfold
Little did I know
What I missed out on
Living vicariously in a way
Living vicariously through each other
Parts, only in parts
Inept and unable to connect
With feelings impossible to be shown
Time is not what we own
Yes, two roads diverged in the snow and I
Have weathered this storm I've traveled by
A storm awaits you of a different kind
So naive and sparkling
A golden ring and suspected bliss
A trail of false happiness
And a relational ellipsis
Eclipse it
Times change, time passes by
And I took the road alone as I
Walked the sand and questioned the sky
Why?
The ellipsis will not be eclipsed by time
The roads will not meet but will wind and bend
Never to meet up again

Asylum

A breaking in the midst
A wanting and waiting
Wading in the waters of well known phobias
An ever present aching
An ache for something more
And all the while screams from six feet below the floor
What used to be renewed
Has now become unglued
Admitted, take me in
Take me under
Commited, make me win
Make me wonder
What is that which sent me here all alone
What left me here in the deep unknown
All is blank, white noise and white walls
Where ink blots turn as Rohrschach falls
What am I seeing now?
New medicines can heal somehow
Secrets...
Antidepressants to alter your mood
They can give me a whole new attitude
Was power not enough to quench the thirst for something more
Iron fists and iron doors
Solitary confinement of a voluntary kind
I sent myself here
Cradled in fear
Which me is really me?
So much left to discover what's right
Just leave me alone tonight
And don't question the motive of my rage
Unless you truly want to engage
In war
Unless you want battle scars of a verbal sparring kind
You can't push rewind
And who's to say you would choose any better anyhow
But for now
I remain unbridled and unmoved
Confident of only this...
My restlessnsess

Vagabond

You spend so much time flying under the radar
But I see everywhere you've been
Cowering under the shadows of streetlights
Afraid to let anyone in

I see you although you're invisible
Casting darkness beneath a silent glow
Whispering secrets under your breath
Pretending that nobody knows

If I could just catch a glimpse of your face
Because I know full well where you've been
You just might give up your anonymous charade
Be persuaded to creep me within

Deep within your shadowy soul
Is something I find so familiar
Yet all you can find among scraps, within dust
Are treasures you swear so peculiar

Quietly you move about
Careful to disregard action
Inward you spin, slowly you drift
In the midst of chaotic distraction

I see you as beyond beautiful
I want to break inside
You have purpose beyond what you know
Strength you cannot hide

Break within and let it out
Find out who you are
There is more to life than mere ashes
There is healing among your scars

Let go of your fears and phobias
You cling to what lies in the depths
Faith is a mystery you've yet to discover
Relearn how to take each breath

Dig your way out of dead man's bones
Release all of those burdens down
Look up! Lift your eyes to the art of the breakdown
Before the chaos of life leaves you drowned